Is it really anger or is it guilt? Guilt for things said or willfully unsaid? Guilt for things done or willfully not done? Life is a rat’s nest of decisions. Forgiving yourself for the bad ones is all you can do since they can’t be undone. Stay strong and be careful about giving art too much of a place in your emotional life. I think I’ve done that with some casualties along the way. Forgive yourself. You’ve only got one life to live and you can work to make it better. Art isn’t everything. Just sayin’.
Guilt of course is part of the equation and I have forgiven myself for the past that I have no control over. I am in a good place largely because of what my daughter has taught me through her recovery. My life is more balanced than it has ever been because of what I have witnessed in her and have come to see in myself. Art for me is a perspective, how I see the world. I love too many other things to be hold up in my studio 24/7. Like sleep, good books, walks and writing. LOL 😊
Glad to hear that. Torments can be incredible energy depleters and get a person with an artistic sensibility off course. Have you thought about brightening/lightening your palette? Just a thought.
Since moving to Oregon in 2015, my palette changed a great deal. The piece that accompanied my blog, Anger, was done some time ago. If you visit my webpage you will see what I mean when viewing newer work.
I apologize for that palette comment. Your new work is exciting, vibrant and cheerful and, you were right, I had not spent enough time looking at your new work. Excellent!
Yvonne - most certainly. Resentment is a huge issue which has personally led me to passive aggressive behavior toward others and of course myself. The key is to look at the resentment and anger at its core. What is really causing it? Are others (or you) really to blame or are we just victims of their own circumstances? I resented Doug for not being the father he needed to be for McKenzie. I resented Mckenzie for being an addict. I resented myself for not seeing any of it earlier. Hindsight is 20/20. Feel it, realize it for what it was at the time and move on. You have given me another blog topic.
As always, I appreciate your thoughtful responses and in this case, questions. Michelle
And Oh my goodness!!! Passive aggressive!! I’ve been told I am PA!! I’ve learned to approach a touchy subject by saying, ‘I am not being passive aggressive when I ask you…..(etc)’.
Sometimes it’s received, and other times ….well…depends on the mindset of the one receiving.
Is it really anger or is it guilt? Guilt for things said or willfully unsaid? Guilt for things done or willfully not done? Life is a rat’s nest of decisions. Forgiving yourself for the bad ones is all you can do since they can’t be undone. Stay strong and be careful about giving art too much of a place in your emotional life. I think I’ve done that with some casualties along the way. Forgive yourself. You’ve only got one life to live and you can work to make it better. Art isn’t everything. Just sayin’.
Guilt of course is part of the equation and I have forgiven myself for the past that I have no control over. I am in a good place largely because of what my daughter has taught me through her recovery. My life is more balanced than it has ever been because of what I have witnessed in her and have come to see in myself. Art for me is a perspective, how I see the world. I love too many other things to be hold up in my studio 24/7. Like sleep, good books, walks and writing. LOL 😊
Love your comments!!
Glad to hear that. Torments can be incredible energy depleters and get a person with an artistic sensibility off course. Have you thought about brightening/lightening your palette? Just a thought.
Since moving to Oregon in 2015, my palette changed a great deal. The piece that accompanied my blog, Anger, was done some time ago. If you visit my webpage you will see what I mean when viewing newer work.
I apologize for that palette comment. Your new work is exciting, vibrant and cheerful and, you were right, I had not spent enough time looking at your new work. Excellent!
Thanks John!! The landscape here has had a real effect on me in many ways. 😊
Anger is a powerful emotion. Including and sometimes involving fear.
My experience with anger is that it can often times lead to resentment,
That I don’t want to have, which then can lead to more anger.
Have you found that as well??
Yvonne - most certainly. Resentment is a huge issue which has personally led me to passive aggressive behavior toward others and of course myself. The key is to look at the resentment and anger at its core. What is really causing it? Are others (or you) really to blame or are we just victims of their own circumstances? I resented Doug for not being the father he needed to be for McKenzie. I resented Mckenzie for being an addict. I resented myself for not seeing any of it earlier. Hindsight is 20/20. Feel it, realize it for what it was at the time and move on. You have given me another blog topic.
As always, I appreciate your thoughtful responses and in this case, questions. Michelle
We have lived similar scenarios, Michelle!!
And Oh my goodness!!! Passive aggressive!! I’ve been told I am PA!! I’ve learned to approach a touchy subject by saying, ‘I am not being passive aggressive when I ask you…..(etc)’.
Sometimes it’s received, and other times ….well…depends on the mindset of the one receiving.